buyn:

Guess who finished Supernatural Season 3?

buyn:

Guess who finished Supernatural Season 3?

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Sorry for Not Putting on a Hair Shirt, or How 9x19 Shows Dean’s Atonement is a Long Way off

sleepsintheimpala:

Of all the things said in Alex Annie Alexis Anne, in the context of this episode and Dean’s current character arc, this little sentence is the one that really got to me.

In religious practice, a cilice, or hair shirt is worn as a sign of atonement and penance for ones sins with the basic idea behind it that if a human repents now, they will go to Heaven rather than Hell. Commonly made of burlap or goat’s hair, it was worn underneath regular clothing. The effect of it was raw-rubbed skin, soreness, or even in extreme cases open wounds.

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So, when referencing it, it’s not just that Dean blithely brushes aside the idea of being sorry for enjoying the vampire kill. It’s that by doing so he brushes aside the idea that he could ever be able to atone for his sins and basically sentences himself to Hell. Which is exactly where he believes he has to go again.

Kevin’s blood is on my hands, and that ain’t ever getting clean. I’ll burn for that. I will.   (9x10 Road Trip)

I would argue that taking on the Mark of Cain was an act of of penance, of self-flagellation with an angry read scar to prove it, but rather than doing this to rid himself of sin, it was to condemn himself to Hell. Dean’s not stupid. While he may have underestimated some of the side-effects of the Mark, taking on the Curse of a Knight of Hell was not just a means to an end to defeat Abaddon. It is a means to send himself back to the Pit.

When it comes to those side-effects, Dean is in fact doing the very opposite of atoning for sins, the very opposite of what a cilice is made for. The act of contrition made by wearing a hair shirt is called “mortification of the flesh”; essentially meaning denying oneself earthly pleasures. Mortification of the flesh can entail anything ranging from a fast to the self-flagellation I mentioned above. Basically the very antithesis of what Dean is currently doing. He is downing liquor by the bucket-load. He is indulging in murder (indulging because he is enjoying it). And not just that, by demanding the vampire looked at him at the moment of death, he is watching the life drain out of him. Not that it was needed, but to emphasise just how awful that was, Jodie had Alex turn away from someone’s life ending. It’s what I imagine psychopaths do…

And Dean, he just doesn’t care, because - as Jensen mentioned - his emotions have become dulled under the Mark’s curse and it is allowing his dark side to come out in full force. So, what we have is a Dean who is much more like Endverse’s 2014!Dean who believes that killing a human suffering from Croatoan is normal.

Plugging some Croat, it’s called commonplace

A Dean who is

all too well schooled in the art of getting to the truth

A Dean that 2009!Dean abhorred.

The closer we get to the finale, the more apparent it is becoming that we are going to leave Dean in a very dark place for summer hiatus. Because something is truly broken inside and it will take more than three episodes to mend it. God, it’s is going to hurt.

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jensenfans:

Those Glasses // 8.14

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Supernatural

Episode  Poster 9.1/9.2

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carnilia:

4persephone:

carnilia:

Ooooohhh shit’s gonna go down  it is coMING

Yes but the question in my case is will the casualty when the tower of cards falls be someone else, or will Dean simply take out himself?

While I’m not ruling out the possibility that someone else will be a casualty of the fallout that is coming, I am absolutely positive that Dean is going to take himself out— perhaps only symbolically, i.e. losing his humanity, but a death of self is definitely coming for him and it is going to be set off by the implosion between him and Sam.

That’s my take too… this last set of episodes have read like a drawn out hospice stay to me except only Dean knows that’s how it actually ends. Which is horrendous enough already, but the worst of it is I’m all but positive Sam is so busy being worried and frustrated by what he sees as Dean stubborn refusal to change/share his trouble that he basically has no clue as to what Dean intends. He’s only going to recognize the suicide note for what it was in hindsight.

I’m just wondering if when this does all come to a head, is this going to result in Sam risking his life for Dean? I feel like again and again it is being uttered “he wouldn’t trade his life for yours” when we know he actually would if that came about in a way that didn’t violate his agency. But I do wonder how that can be achieved in a manner that isn’t taking 10 steps backwards right back into the co-dependency, when that is clearly something they’re not aiming to do….

I am admittedly uncertain how this will end, but I do know something has to give. Something has to happen to get them from Alex + Mama vamp, to Alex and Jody.

Maybe in the end it will come down to a choice. It will come down to Sam letting Dean choose what he wants. Maybe if he shows Dean that he can choose what is best for him, Dean will be able to see that Sam is capable of choosing what is best for himself.

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4persephone:

carnilia:

4persephone:

You know for all the parallels we see between Dean and Momma this episode and how its supposed to illustrate the toxic nature of Dean’s interactions with Sam, it’s this scene in particular that rips the heart of me. Because this demonstrates another parallel relationship.

This is Dean coming for Sam. Dean protecting a Sam that’s under threat. Dean, in all his messed up world concept doing the best he can to love his brother and keep him from further harm, even though he believes that his entire existence is fundamentally offensive and unacceptable to Sam. Even though he believes and has apparently accepted that in similar situations he’s going to have to rescue himself or die alone…because the relationship is not two way in Dean’s perception…his brothers’ protection and returned approval and acceptance of Dean as family entitled to the things that position implies is contingent on Dean meeting a standard he just can’t seem to reach.

And that dynamic….that promise of devotion without reciprocation? The acknowledgement his life is a tool to be used for the others good but not a thing deserving protection as a result? We’ve seen Dean in this kind of relationship before. With John Winchester.

Sam may not know it but he’s now in a relationship where his brother is relating to him in the same way he related to his dad… accepting himself as something inadequate.. a useful tool.

This, to Dean is just the reality of family. The way love works for people like him apparently.

OH MY GOD

Hey its not like I like the realization, but I can’t not see it. I just don’t know how Sam will cope if he ever ‘gets it’ too.

No, you’re right  and that’s why

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4persephone:

You know for all the parallels we see between Dean and Momma this episode and how its supposed to illustrate the toxic nature of Dean’s interactions with Sam, it’s this scene in particular that rips the heart of me. Because this demonstrates another parallel relationship.

This is Dean coming for Sam. Dean protecting a Sam that’s under threat. Dean, in all his messed up world concept doing the best he can to love his brother and keep him from further harm, even though he believes that his entire existence is fundamentally offensive and unacceptable to Sam. Even though he believes and has apparently accepted that in similar situations he’s going to have to rescue himself or die alone…because the relationship is not two way in Dean’s perception…his brothers’ protection and returned approval and acceptance of Dean as family entitled to the things that position implies is contingent on Dean meeting a standard he just can’t seem to reach.

And that dynamic….that promise of devotion without reciprocation? The acknowledgement his life is a tool to be used for the others good but not a thing deserving protection as a result? We’ve seen Dean in this kind of relationship before. With John Winchester.

Sam may not know it but he’s now in a relationship where his brother is relating to him in the same way he related to his dad… accepting himself as something inadequate.. a useful tool.

This, to Dean is just the reality of family. The way love works for people like him apparently.

OH MY GOD

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heyfunniest:

is this even a kid show

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sarasarai:

Dear Robert Berens, 

Please write all of the things forever and always amen.

Sincerely, 

Me

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